I remember him looking at me with a mixture of contempt and resignation before climbing on top of me and moving in and out without the slightest hint of tenderness. I recall, vividly, the last time we had sex. I’d been married, but my husband and I had started growing apart within a couple of years, and soon, there was no intimacy whatsoever. I wasn’t exaggerating when I said that before Enrique, it had been 10 years since I’d had sex.
“I just want to get fucked” is how I put it. Though Feeld was founded in 2014, I hadn’t heard of the app until earlier this year, when a friend recommended it after hearing me explain that I was experiencing a sexual second wind and that all I really wanted was a lover, not a boyfriend. Feeld, from what I understand, started as a destination for people who are into “kink,” which can include light BDSM or threesomes or group sex or, well, things that continue to shock me (“electric play”?).